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Phase Two was hardware. It started out by covering emergency repairs to the Augenstein drive, the thing that drove the little spotter ships out in the Oort, and Dekker saw immediately that the easy times were over. He wasn't sorry. The harder the work was, the less time he had to think about the death of the father he had lost for so long, and regained for so little.
By the third day of Phase Two, when they had the shell of their Augenstein off, Dekker's partner stuck his head inside and pulled it out with an expression of despair. "All these parts are so heavy, DeWoe," he complained. "I do not see why we must do this dirty work when it is enough to understand the theory."
"The corporation doesn't think so," Dekker told him. "Move over. Let me have a look."
But when his own head was inside he was startled at the sheer bulk of the components, too. Of course, Dekker knew the theory of the Augenstein. What he knew was nothing but theory, though. He had never seen a real one, and hadn't been prepared for the labyrinth of piping and the vast shell of the magnetic containment that kept the whole thing from blowing up in their faces.
It couldn't really do that there, of course, because they certainly didn't have a real, powered-up Augenstein in the shop. There was no fuel inside the containment shell. Nobody ever had real antimatter anywhere on Earth, or on Mars, either, except maybe in the tiniest amounts in some research laboratory. Nobody was ever that reckless, because antimatter didn't stay antimatter when there was any normal matter anywhere around for it to react with, and you didn't want to be there when that reaction occurred. What they had were dummies of the drives, a dozen of them to share around the class, and each one the size of a hydrocar.
Since they contained no fuel, they could never be made to work, but they were structurally complete, great heavy things you could walk right into once you'd pulled the interior plumbing out. On Earth that was a sufficiently tough job by itself, because in gravity you needed hoists and jacks to lift the five-hundred-kilogram parts and ease them out of the way.
What the trainees had to do was to strip their Augensteins and put them together again. In space you wouldn't need the hoists. On the other hand, no one ever would do that sort of thing in practice, in space or anywhere else. Anyone who ever tried to take a live Augenstein apart would die of radiation sickness very soon thereafter. The idea, though, was that they had to know how all the parts worked just in case some minor part should fail—which was unlikely to happen in practice, fortunately—and happen to be repairable—which was pure fantasy.
It was hard, dirty work, and nothing in Dekker's studies had prepared him for this kind of labor in a 1-g environment. At that, he was better prepared than the partner the Phase Two teacher had paired him with. At least Dekker had done hard physical labor in his life—naturally; he was a Martian. Fez Mehdevi clearly had not. As far as Dekker could see, the man had never before lifted a finger for any task more arduous than pushing the button to start a machine, and not much of that. "For this sort of thing," Mehdevi groaned, sucking a knuckle he had just skinned on a pipe end, "we hire mechanics in Tehran."
"Can your mechanics handle a magnetic containment system?"
"Can anyone?" Mehdevi looked sorrowfully around at the clutter of parts. "This must be dangerous," he complained. "Look, it is unstable. Without the magnetic containment the antimatter will surely touch the walls of the vessel and explode. Yet when the Augenstein is not operating there is no power to run the magnets."
"That's why they ship them with external power," Dekker said, peering into the cluster of cooling elements.
"But what if it fails?" He gave the thing a look of loathing and pleaded, "You uncouple that tubing, DeWoe, please. I am injured."
So it was Dekker DeWoe, the limitations of his Martian physique notwithstanding, who did most of the grunt work of tearing the damn, dirty thing down and putting it together again, and when he got back to his room at night he was too tired to worry about anything else.
Which did not, actually, keep him from worrying.
Night after night, Dekker DeWoe lay in his bed, listening to the faint snores and occasional grunts and moans from Toro Tanabe's room across the hall, and thinking. Dekker had never experienced insomnia before. Insomnia simply wasn't a Martian kind of problem. He didn't like it. He didn't like the black depression that came over him when he thought of his father's last days, caught in the dehumanizing tedium of the Colorado Rehabilitation Facility, or, for that matter, of his father's last years, the pain-filled and futureless wreck of the former daring Oort flyer.
Fez Mehdevi, at least, had formally offered condolences when he heard of Dekker's loss—that was the main reason Dekker hadn't pleaded for a change of partners—but no one else in the class had seemed to care.
Of course, he'd passed the news of Boldon DeWoe's death on to his mother at once, but all Gerti DeWoe had to say about it in her return message—voicemail only, no picture—was, "It's a pity, Dek. I guess the important thing to remember is that he did his best."
It was a shorter and less personal response than Dekker had expected; it did not occur to him that she might not have wanted her son to see her, perhaps, crying. He agreed that it was a pity. But there didn't seem to be any supply of pity anywhere in this world to spare for the tragedies of Boldon DeWoe.
There was one complication in his life he didn't have to worry about any more, though. That was Cresti Amman. Cresti no longer figured in Dekker's future prospects. She hadn't been angry about being stood up, at least not after Dekker explained what had happened. On the other hand, Cresti's forgiveness no longer mattered much. The psychologist's note-taking in the control center had had its consequences. Cresti had been caught at something, no one knew what. The next morning an advisory had appeared on every screen in the dorms to say that three of Dekker's classmates, Cresti included, had been summarily dropped for "insufficient diligence." The class size was down to thirty-one, and Cresti Amman was history.
Amazingly, Toro Tanabe was still around.
In spite of the fact that Dekker had never seen him study, Dekker was astonished to learn that the man had actually come in second in the class, half a dozen names above Dekker's own respectable, but not startling, eighth place in the standings.
"How the hell do you manage it?" Dekker demanded one night, rubbing the muscles that ached from trying to heave hundred-kilogram masses of metal around in the shop all day.
Tanabe looked startled. "What do you mean? My grades? Oh, perhaps that first phase was just the natural result of a good education. I notice that you did quite well yourself, DeWoe."
"That was theory. What I'm talking about is what we're doing now. The Augenstein. Your team got through the containment check twice as fast as mine did today."
Tanabe spread his hands. "But that is also only training and practice, DeWoe. This whole segment of the course is foolishness, of course. If anything went wrong with the containment while we were out in spotter ships, ten or twenty million kilometers from the base, we would not be repairing it. We would simply die. But as we were aware this segment would be required for the course, my father and I arranged for special instruction."
"How did you know?" Dekker asked, and then stopped himself. Tanabe's expression had clouded over, and Dekker had remembered the interesting fact that his own father had, somehow, known in advance just what would be on the entrance test. "I mean," he amended himself, "what do you mean, 'arranged'? You didn't have an Augenstein to practice on, did you?"
"But I did have one." Tanabe smiled. "My father's business interests include space ventures. Because of that good fortune he was able to provide me with a dummy quite like the ones in the shop, as well as a technician to help me learn. It is true," he said, looking regretful, "that my father did not approve of my decision to come here. My father is unfortunately no longer of the opinion that the Oort project is economically sound. Still, once I had convinced him that the training was what I wanted, and he had given his permission, he helped me in every way he could." He finished lacing his cowboy boots and stood up. "Of course," he added, "I imagine your team would have performed better if your partner had not been Fez Mehdevi."
Dekker didn't answer that. It wasn't that he didn't agree, but there was some sort of cloudy loyalty to his partner involved. Tanabe didn't press the point. He glanced at himself in the wall mirror. "Well," he said sunnily, "it's about time to 'knock back' a few beers, as you say. Would you care to join me?"
Dekker, who never said anything like "knock back" about anything, shook his head. "There's a test tomorrow," he reminded his roommate.
"Of course there is," Tanabe agreed. "Study diligently, then, DeWoe. I'll see you later."
All that physical exercise was reshaping Dekker DeWoe's body—that and the shots. He no longer needed the polysteroids; his muscles had responded to Earth-normal gravity by thickening and strengthening themselves until he no longer felt he was carrying another person on his back. The calcium intake had increased the density of his bones—pretty well, anyway. He couldn't compete with the bigger and stronger Earthie males in shove-and-grunt, but he did abandon the leg braces.
After he reached that plateau, walking just for the sake of walking around became a lot more pleasant. More interesting, too. When the weather was good Dekker allowed himself the recreation of walking around on the mountainside, among the many buildings of the Oort center.
It was a pretty place, more like a college campus than he had realized—though he had never seen an Earthie college campus before. Buildings of various ages, originally intended for an assortment of various purposes, had been assimilated by the Oort authorities and bent to their own needs as the project grew, while new special-purpose ones had been constructed. His own dormitory, he learned, had been built originally as a "sanitarium" for people with lung ailments, long ago. The headquarters building had at one time been a deluxe resort hotel, and still possessed the swimming pools and tennis courts it had started with. The central auditorium had begun life as a "movie" theater, whatever that was. Down lower on the mountain, below the classrooms and workshops and offices, there was still a scattering of private homes and other, smaller hotels, though none of them were "private" anymore; now they housed the administrative employees of the corporation and the faculty of the training center. So damn many employees, Jay-John Belster once pointed out bitterly—and the salaries of every last one of them paid for out of the money raised by the Bonds, which would sooner or later have to be paid off by Mars.
At the top of the mountain, though out of sight, was the actual working headquarters of Oortcorp itself.
Of course, you couldn't see that from outside. All of that was not only new but firmly underground—because, Jay-John Belster sneered, of the rich Earthie fear of crowds and demonstrations. All you could observe to prove it was there was the overhead array of communications dishes, the vast fixed one that always pointed south and east to the main geostationary satellite at the end of the Skyhook that hung over the west coast of South America, and the smaller—but still meters-across—geared antennae that tracked Oortcorp's dozens of special-purpose satellites.
And all around, in every direction, were the lovely peaks of the Rocky Mountains. They were a balm to the vision. Mountains in themselves were nothing special to a man who had lived on the slope of Olympus Mons, but these were beautifully green and sometimes spectacularly ice-capped, and Dekker DeWoe was delighted at their sight.
When the results of the test on Augenstein and antimatter theory were posted Dekker had managed to improve his standing to fifth. But number one was still the same Earthie woman, someone named Ven Kupferfeld, and right below her name was Toro Tanabe's, still firmly in place with the second highest grade in the class.
It was possible, Dekker thought glumly, turning off the screen, that that particular Earthie was simply smarter than he was.
He didn't like that thought. He didn't have much time to brood over the question, though. The class had already moved on to the subjects of maintenance on the spotter ships themselves and the care of the suit insert that an Oort miner had to live in for twenty or thirty days at a time.
When the survivors moved into the suit-insert shop they found six actual spotter-ship suits propped up around the room, waiting for them and looking like half a dozen headless store-window dummies from a fat-men's shop. The suits came in six different sizes, all of them too short for any full-grown Martian, and so the old partnerships were dissolved as the class arranged itself by size.
"Fucking Earthies," Jay-John Belster grumbled in Dekker's ear as they sorted themselves out into teams—both the surviving Martians in the team with the longest and skinniest suit, of course, along with three of the tallest and leanest Earthies. "They could have got us one decent suit, but they just don't give a damn for Martians here."
Dekker didn't answer, because the suit-insert instructor had climbed on a chair to address them. She was a new face to Dekker, a "European" Earthie named Liselotte Durch, and a good deal older than anyone else in the room. Her hair was white, her face was lined, and her voice was strident. "Don't touch the suits until I tell you," she ordered. "Don't complain if they don't fit when you try them on, either. I already know they aren't going to fit. If you ever actually make it out into the Oort, which I also know damn few of you will, you'll get one that's custom made to your own body. That's not because they want it to look nice. It's because you have to live in your suit for weeks at a time. When you're out in your spotter ship you'll piss in your suit and crap in it, and some of you guys will probably want to try to jerk off in it, but I warn you now that that isn't going to work. You'll be catheterized before you leave the base ship, and if you let your glands run away with you and get an erection while you're in the suit, it's going to hurt."
The sole function of the suit, she went on, telling them what they already knew, was to act as an interface between the tiny, stripped-down, one-man spotter ship and the human body within it. The suit would keep them alive. It would feed them, give them air, and remove their wastes; and the auxiliaries would evaporate the water out of those wastes and give it back to them to drink. Just to drink.
"Drinking is all you'll need water for," she said, "because you aren't going to be able to wash or anything like that. Naturally by the time you get back to base you're going to stink, but, hey, that's what you're signing up for." She gave them a challenging look, as though seeking protests. There weren't any, so she moved on. "Now, one of you in each group, strip down and climb into the suit. The controls are all depowered, but don't touch them anyway, and don't put the helmets on. DeWoe? Which one of you is DeWoe? All right, DeWoe, leave your team and come over here a minute."
Surprised, Dekker did as he was told. Durch didn't look at him at first; she was watching the teams as they wrangled among themselves to see who would go first. When one member of each team had finally begun to undress she took time to look down at Dekker. "Your name's DeWoe. Are you any relation to Boldon DeWoe?" she asked.
"My father," he said. "He just died."
She nodded as though the news didn't surprise her. "I heard something about that. Too bad. You know he really messed himself up," she said, as though Dekker could possibly have been unaware of his father's condition. "I knew him in the Oort. Smart man; I liked him. Good pilot, too, but he couldn't leave the dope alone. I hope you don't take after him."
When you were spotting comets out in the Oort, Liselotte Durch had told them, you would be put into your suit by trained professionals, and they would take care of threading the tubes into your personal parts, and checking for wrinkles in the fabric and adjusting the fit to your body before each mission.
That was what it would be like out in the Oort. In training it was different. In training you just stripped down to your skivvies and stood still while your teammates pulled the suit up around you and did their best to get it all zipped up. "Actually," the instructor said, "you want to remember that when you put this on you're not just wearing the liner suit. You're wearing the whole ship."
It felt like wearing a whole ship, as a matter of fact. When Dekker was sealed inside, trying to hunch his tall frame down to fit into a space at least half a dozen centimeters too short, he felt like a mummy. Nothing moved easily, but then, in a real spotter ship, hardly any parts of his body would be moving at all. The spiky invigilation tubes that would be inside him in actual use were now pressing painfully against sensitive parts of his body. The whole thing seemed to weigh a ton—did weigh a hundred kilograms or more, and Dekker had to strain to stand up in it.
If others could handle it, Dekker could. There was a personal challenge involved for Dekker DeWoe, too. As the instructor had reminded him, his father had worn a suit just like this, a long time ago and those billions of kilometers away.
So Dekker pushed the hands of his teammates away and stood erect. "Ready," he said, and when Liselotte Durch gave the order, Jay-John Belster picked the helmet up and set it on over his head. His whole team pitched in to settle it in place and snap the connections in.
For a moment Dekker was in total blackness. This wasn't like putting on a hotsuit to roam the slopes around Sagdayev; it was heavier and more constricting, and there wasn't enough air. For a moment he almost panicked. Then the external air supply kicked in and he felt a soft, refreshing movement of air around his face.
A moment later the taped virtuals came on.
He was blind no longer. He was still surrounded by blackness, but the blackness, wherever he looked, was punctuated by a universe of stars—bright ones and faint, diamond white or hued in blue and yellow and pale red. It was only a partial virtual, with no sound and certainly no touch or smell—but then, in the emptiness of the Oort, there would be no external sounds to hear. It didn't matter. The vision was enough. Dekker was seeing what his ship's eyes saw—at least, what a real spotter ship would see, out in the Oort. The stars that surrounded him whichever way he turned his head weren't real, of course. They were only the spectacle that some ship had once observed, taped, and reproduced for this training session. But they were wonderful. He was there.
Liselotte Durch's voice startled him when she whispered in his ear. "Are you all right? Are you getting your feeds?"
"I'm fine," he said.
"Then start your drill," she ordered, and he began the list of procedures. His fingers found the keypads that controlled the ship movements and instrument readings sprang up before his eyes: state of consumables, rate of acceleration, function checks on all the parts of his imaginary "ship." Another touch, and the radars reported distances to the nearest orbiting comets—a few million kilometers at the least, because the Oort was a very thin cloud; another touch, and the one he had selected popped closer to his eyes, a dull, lumpy potato of a thing that showed no sign of the great luminous tail it might develop if he chose to tag it and thread it with its instruments and drives and send it down to enrich the air of Mars.
He only had ten minutes in the suit. It wasn't enough; but when Dekker got out he was grinning. The next one up was the woman in their team, that very bright—and also, in an Earthie way, very good-looking—pale-haired one named Ven Kupferfeld. She gave Dekker a curious look, then a smile as she began to disrobe. "You look pleased," she said.
He didn't answer; the grin stayed on his face, and it was answer enough. Jay-John Belster and another man helped Dekker pull his legs out of the suit and readied it for the woman, now down to her brightly patterned and quite minimal underwear.
"This is the best part," Belster muttered to Dekker as they watched her get ready to enter the suit. "I wouldn't mind taking a little piece of that."
Dekker grunted without a specific reply, though he shared the notion. Ven Kupferfeld's underthings were not only minute, they were just about transparent besides. She was very tall and thin for an Earthie, which made her all the better looking for Dekker DeWoe. When she was into the suit and the show was, for the moment, over, Dekker and Belster together picked up the helmet, with all its lines and cables for air supply and external feeds, and waited for their other teammates to do the tedious work of tugging and twisting and zipping the suit into some sort of fit.
Dekker glanced to the front of the room. Liselotte Durch was at her teacher's lectern by the door, talking to another woman who looked vaguely familiar to Dekker. He couldn't pin the vagrant memory down. "Belster?" he said to the Martian. "Do you know who that woman is?"
Belster looked, but the woman was already turning away to leave. "Can't tell," he said. "Probably she's another instructor. But, listen, DeWoe, I was meaning to ask you. Did old lady Durch just say she knew your father in the Oort?" Dekker nodded. "Well, that's a damn good break for you. I guess you might get a little help now and then."
Dekker said, "My father gave me all the help he ever can, Belster. He got hurt in the Oort years ago, and a couple of weeks ago he died of it."
Surprisingly, the Martian didn't look surprised. He just said. "Well, I didn't actually mean help from your father, but now that you mention it, I guess I did hear something about it. Fucking Earthies let him just rot, didn't they?"
Dekker shrugged, and Belster nodded sagaciously. "Fucking Earthies," he repeated. "They don't give a shit about Mars. This whole thing's just so they can bleed us dry, and now they're talking about folding the whole operation."
"They can't do that," Dekker said with conviction.
"They can if we let them get away with it."
Dekker looked at him curiously. "They don't have any right," he said with conviction.
Belster seemed to approve. "Good man," he said. "Look, Kupferfeld's ready for the helmet. Let's give her a hand—and don't mess her pretty hair."
Dekker gave Ven Kupferfeld more than a hand, actually, at that evening's shove-and-grunt. In fact, he got the chance to give her a fairly complete massage. As he came into the room the short, sallow Fez Mehdevi came over to him. "Please," he said, "would you care to be my partner for this evening, too?" He sounded aggrieved.
"I already have a stress-reduction partner, Mehdevi."
"So did I, but she has decided I am not enough of a challenge for her, so she has arranged to make some changes. She—But here she is, she can tell you for herself."
The "she" was Ven Kupferfeld. She was grinning. "Forget this one, Mehdevi," she said. "I'll try him out myself. You go find somebody else."
Dekker never enjoyed a stress-reduction session more, though the stresses it relieved were surely overbalanced by the new stresses it brought about. Kupferfeld's exercise briefs were less transparent than her underwear had been, but they still exposed a lot of skin, and as they wrestled Dekker got the chance to touch a lot of it.
It was a pleasure, but not without its drawbacks. It was a foregone conclusion that a Martian like Dekker, however well he had responded to shots and exercise, wasn't ever going to be strong enough to do shove-and-grunt with a male Earthie student, except perhaps a short and marshmallow-soft one like Fez Mehdevi. He began to wonder if he was strong enough to do it with Ven Kupferfeld, either. It wasn't that his polysteroided muscles were seriously less powerful than hers. The problem was skeletal. As he tried to flip her forcefully resisting frame over on the mat, he wondered if he was going to snap some flimsy Martian bone.
But they got through it without disaster, and as they were headed for the showers she grinned at him, panting. "Good workout, DeWoe," she said. "Hey. I hear you were in Kenya before you came here."
Dekker had given up wondering how everybody in the class seemed to know so much more about him than he knew about them. "That's right, Ven."
"A grand place," she pronounced. "I was there myself, years ago. Did you see the game herds?"
"Some. I had a friend who had a farm in the Mara."
"Tanzania's better—hell, Tanzania's wonderful. My grandfather took me when I was fifteen and we saw all those giraffes and wildebeests and lions—all running free, even killing right before your eyes."
It had not occurred to Dekker that killing was a spectator sport. He said so, and she grinned at him. "That depends a lot on who's doing the killing and who gets killed, doesn't it? Anyway, we ought to get together and talk about it sometime."
Something inside Dekker crowed in triumph and joy, but he kept his expression cool. "I'd like that," he said. "When?"
"Oh," she said, "some time soon. Listen, DeWoe, I heard about your father. I'm really sorry."
"Thank you."
She studied him for a moment. "A lot of you Martians blame us—what's that thing you call us? 'Dirtsuckers'?—blame us dirtsuckers for things like that. Like what happened to your father, I mean, and I'm glad you don't feel that way."
Since Dekker was not in fact sure that he didn't blame the dirtsuckers, he felt a sudden tightness in his throat. Could that be anger? he wondered. Was he spending so much time with Earthies that he was beginning to react like them?
He knew that the feeling was wrong, but he couldn't help saying sharply, "What makes you think I don't?"
She didn't take offense. She just nodded as though the response was not only natural but, in some way, even right. As she turned away toward the women's shower stalls she said, "Don't forget, we want to talk sometime."
Dekker's heat cooled swiftly. He called after her, "There's a weekend coming up—maybe Saturday?"
She paused long enough to smile at him over her shoulder. "Not this Saturday, no—I'm going away for the weekend. But soon, Dekker. We have a lot to talk about.